Memorable POE moments for me

I made a "good bye forever" post https://www.pathofexile.com/forum/view-thread/3423002/

and whooops i m back.

its barely over a month. i've been playing Grim dawn and loving it.

i've already spewed my dissatisfaction of POE. i've had a lot of time to be away from POE.

i've come back just to drop some of my memorable moments in POE.

when the game first made an appearance it looked like shit. i was really criticizing this indie company for being a diablo wannabe.

but as time passed it looked better and learning it's classless system and extensive passive tree i was drawn in.

i came in late, being a "late" adopter, i only came in during open beta.

peity was the last boss. but man i tell you. i really got hooked. and i sucked so much ass. i fell into the dps trap, where i kept focusing on dps and died the moment someone barely scratched me.

still it was fun. i had many different characters, many different builds, they all sucked. but it was fun. trying out new things was fun. the journey is fun.

trying to help different bandit combinations was a thing too.

i remember the first time i managed to trade for terminus EST. i was poor AF. i really pity and am grateful to the guy who traded me his terminus for 1 exalt worth of random currency.

i also remember mistaking blessed orbs as divines. i apologize to the dude that i messaged to trade, thinking it was divines. what a dumbass i was lol.
really no ill intentions, just stupidity on my end.

i was never good enough to go mapping. i was stuck doing docks forever. i remember never getting higher than level 84.

i remember when malachai was introduced. my strategy was to zerg him down. go in, do damage, die, repeat.

oh this is where i point out. previously i've played diablo 1, diablo 2, titan quest, dungeon siege and maybe sacred? maybe torchlight? i forgot the timeline. but in every arpg i played, i only played the default difficulty. my mentality had always been "normal" is the end.

i would continue playing normal regardless and still sucking at it. i just wanted to kill stuff.

POE was the game that broke me out of this. not even titanquest. 3 difficulties in poe and i cleared em all. but i was playing like a total noob. i rarely knew when to avoid attacks. i ate em all.

i always cursed at the game for being unfair. how could i have survived such attacks. playing other games like monster hunter actually helped me greatly and changed how i played poe.

i got better, and i changed my mindset. i had more defences.
i remember being so happy the first time breaking 84 cap to level 85. then getting stuck at 90. then 95. then 99. i never got to 100. i no longer plan to. i always wanted to map to 100 instead of cheesing via grouping up/doing 5 ways or some other stuff.

it WAS possible. i was actually progressing towards 100 till AN dropped. to put my struggles to a hundred short, i ll summarize by saying i've given up all notion to map to 100.

i remember being happy with absolute bonkers of weapons such as starforge. then echoforge.

i remember when the shaper/elders were introduced i was never strong enough to fight them.

but i do know that i was forced to learn to git gud to fight many of the more "modern" bosses.

i have a love/hate relationship with sirus. what i can say is he's my favourite POE boss of ALL TIME. despite finding some of his mechanics unfair, i LOVE his theme song. his design not too much of a fan but everything put together, it felt epic. there was a story, there was deep engagement. speaking of story, DAYUM. anyone remember zana? she was my bae. i think one thing that kept me invested was zana.

i was invested in her story. her involvement with the shaper and eventually the shaper. then later the elderslayers. everything seemed interconnected. the newer content seems less connected with her not being around.

the other elderslayers leading up to sirus. damn. its so tragic. also a little mindblowing when you realize that technically YOU ARE SIRUS or a version of him. you are an elderslayer that goes into the atlas repeatedly, slaying countless worlds.

theres a lot that i love about poe. i progressed so much. i learned to be a much better gamer than i was as a kid and during my college years. i owe a lot to POE. when i play new arpgs, i pick them up immediately and make a huge amount of progress. i identify attack patterns (maybe thanks to monster hunter but poe made me ingrain the tells in arpgs).

i love poe so damn much despite being hateful? of poe?

my ex once told me that i still loved her. why? because i hated her. i hated her a lot back in the day. in a twisted way, its true. i hated her because i cared. i loved her.

i no longer hate her. its been a long time since i ever even kept in contact with her.

similarly for POE. i think that i still have a lot of love towards it. and i m expressing it here. trying my best to minimize any negativity.

why am i back here anyway? taking a month away from poe with the resolve of not playing it, playing other games. i realized that i m having a lot of fun playing other games. poe will never be how it used to be. i do have resentment to how the common norm in modern arpgs is to play seasonal/temp leagues. many people prefer to jump in, play a few weeks, jump out and repeat. they dont really care about learning/exploring.

having different preferences is fine. i cannot expect them to like things the way i like it. i like exploration. i can say beyond any doubt that my experience playing poe from open beta is something newer players can never have the privilege of experiencing. i experienced how its like to truly fuck around and try making my own builds despite sucking bad.

it was doable back then when there was minimal powercreep. nowadays things are hyper optimized. you always want to squeeze in the extra 1 % improvement whenever and where ever possible.

now? theres over 30 different league mechanics in poe on top of the core mechanics. good luck to anyone who wants to learn all that. its doable but its a daunting task.

my last post was quite negative and was full of my disappointment towards poe.

even logging back in i found that my signature was removed by staff.

i no longer remember what i put. i no longer care.

whenever i drive back home at work my old habits just creep in. i cant help myself and tell myself "cant wait to get back home to POE". then realize. wait a minute. nah.

i think i will end up still having such thoughts for a long time. 8-9 years of habits die hard.

currently i have "lent" all my valuable currency to one of my closest poe buddy. he's been around since closed beta. hes the only one in my guild to actually hit 100. when i say lent, it is likely i will not ask it back from him. he is now busy farming up maybe 100 divines more to finally own a mirror. a lifelong dream. i think i m luckier than him in the sense that i actually got a mirror shard from a natural harbinger drop.

i told him i ll live my live vicariously through him. i really dont expect i ll be returning and i ll likely never ask for the currency back. i m not too sure but i think he might leave poe too or at least reduce his playtime greatly once he obtains the mirror.

my other stuff? my godly gear? i m really tempted to just double corrupt all of them. i m also tempted to just give em away. but ultimately i decided to just leave em all as is. its a snapshot of my history. my achievements. i achieved a whole god damn lot. i dont care that many players dont care about standard. but i am god damn proud of all i earned over the years.

i couldnt be bothered to make a museum post. and i m going to set my profile to private.

my happiness is for myself.

no one can take that away from me.

the reason i come back to post this is just to leave in a better, more positive light. i've had time to calm down and reevaluate. poe is a part of my history but it is no longer made for me. i am sure that there will be many who will enjoy poe. poe1, poe2 or any sequels that follow.

am i free from all disdain? no. i still am biased against GGG mainly for poe2's separation and probably will never support GGG in the future. i have given GGG a LOT of money. too much in fact. also if we're going there, POE no longer needs me or my friends. we are just a small group of fish. they have so much more exposure thanks to d4 and without doubt will only continue to grow.

there are many people who will learn to love poe and they can support ggg.

i have no doubt GGG will have great success.

i will not be there for them in the future. but i will always remember my great love for them in the past.

similar to the original lioneye's A1N1 soundtrack. i am gone.

did i remember to tell you guys how much i love this game?

coz i do!

still sane exile?

It been over a month since i posted this. over 2 months since i ragequit.

i've come to just share about how i still have so many fond memories of POE.

i've actually been playing TLI and GD a huge lot recently and my departure from POE actually made me appreciate those games a huge lot more.

i really have to thank POE for really making me improve myself as a gamer. i've mentioned in the previous post how i never actually go past normal difficulty in older games, usually stagnating at level 30-40.

its quite ironic. i m enjoying other games so bloody damn much right now but i've been playing POE for so long, instead of telling myself "cant wait to get home so i can play GD/TLI", i'd tell myself "cant wait to get home so i can play POE". i mentioned it before but i m still doing it. the habit is ingrained so deeply.

this forum too is memorable. i actually liked reading thru the forums and seeing what other people write. admittedly i havent been doing that for the past few months. my interest in POE has good down significantly.

it becomes really bittersweet. i really dont want to dislike poe but its really evolved into a game that i no longer find fun.

times change. i am no longer as young as i used to be.

i remember introducing poe to one of my guildies. this was back before the graphic improvements came in perhaps before vulkan. i told him how poe was good.

he listened to me. installed the game. got to town. all the way bitchin about how ugly the game looked. he uninstalled right after reaching a1n1.

quite ironic. despite how petty he was, he was the first person in my guild that took down the shaper.

i would say i m an early adopter playing since open beta, besides me only one other member is an even earlier adopter, playing since closed beta. it was impressive to both of us how well our guildie did.

i think the major difference is, we the oldies relished in making our own builds and making them work (rarely if ever that worked out in our favour lol), while our hero followed a build. iirc it was cyclone.

on the flipside i had a guildie that made the same mistakes i had as a newbie, socketing 3 same named supports to support my active skill. he also made the same mistake i did of using 1 skill for single target (melee), 1 skill for single target (range - coz melee hurts), and 1 skill for clearing mobs/aoe.

he refused to listen to advice. didnt actually follow builds properly and didnt want to read. the game became unfun for him VERY quickly. but i dont blame him too much. some people get turned off by complexity. poe is definitely complex.

speaking of my guild mates. we were all mostly single player driven. we rarely ever partied except to do master rotations and perhaps map clearing unlocks.

but as time passed interest in poe may have waned, or perhaps life commitment caught on.

i am the only one left who is a forever alone while most of the others have found partners and have even had kids.

the last one still lingering around with no intention of returning. its weird. i know i wont return but at the same time i wont delete my account/characters. i still have an attachment towards them. but i did go ahead and pass all my valuable currency to my other active guildie.

before my quitting, my active guild members never went above 3 online members (including myself). in fact, between me and some of my close guildies we would actually utilize our guildstash by whispering each other which stash we hid some goodies to avoid them being taken by others. now? its desolate. we casually drop in divines knowing with full knowledge no ones gonna snag it.

i also remember how some of my guildies have OCD. i'd dump stuff in randomly but once in a while he'd actually sort them out neatly.

that reminds me of how much i appreciated the stash affinity feature that ggg introduced. tho it kinda makes the game p2w as the benefits of premium stashes are just too good.

i havent actually logged into poe in game nor do i have it installed. i really miss returning from a rage quit. new league announcements used to hype me the hell up. i d always set my alarm to play on launch. the biggest draw that i had was how my efforts in leagues always carried over to standard.

i recently checked poe website out of nostalgia, in the news section it told the players what would happen to the tattoos and uniques.

it makes me sad to remember the good old days when i would rest assured that all my equipable gear and non league items would always transfer over. i did not need to second guess. now players are left guessing. it really is a different feel where players have no assurance whether or not they get to keep their loot.

its ironic that d4, as much as i dislike it, they actually clarify in their season FAQ what to expect. you can see it even before a new season starts. whereas in poe, we only get clarification near the end of the league.

i miss reinstalling poe to play new leagues. getting new stuff. becoming stronger on std. i miss the copium that i always tell myself.

hang on. my shitty build will get stronger once poe 2 hits.

i miss using poe 2 as copium. poe2 will fix everything.

i miss telling my friends enthusiastically about how mindblowing it is that this game company, announced a game that will be a sequel to the original game but unlike other sequels, it will exist simultaneously with the original game and not only that improve the original game.

it also would set a precedence that any future sequels would follow suit.

i actually theorycrafted and talked with my guildies. speculate. i even bought some gear thinking when poe 2 hits it would be bonkers like crest of desire if it worked with poe2's gem system.

i really dont think i ll be coming back to poe1. but i have relaxed my stance a little for poe2.

that said, playing GD made me realise that i no longer want to play a forever game.

GGG's vision of a forever game was destroyed by GGG itself. other arpgs seem to be self aware that they exist for a certain period of time. their drops are adjusted accordingly. i find myself crafting a huge lot more in other arpgs with their drops being much more generous.

a forever game implies making the players play forever. one way is by making drops more scarce. things in poe feel much more valuable. admittedly i never find the same rush i have playing other arpgs compared to poe where a divine drop is VERY exciting.

but on the flipside, i get drops at a much steady pace the other games dont need a divine equivalent.

i see a new league being announced now. i really miss feeling excited for new league announcements. i really feel nothing now.

so much nostalgia, its like losing a friend who's changed so much you no longer know each other. all i can do is reminiscence the "good old days".

off i go again till the wind blows me back here.

anyway i hope you guys have a blast with the new league when it releases.

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i havent actually logged into poe in game nor do i have it installed

How do you manage to get 5 challenges done then? ;)

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DoubleU wrote:

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i havent actually logged into poe in game nor do i have it installed

How do you manage to get 5 challenges done then? ;)

They probably tried out the tota league mechanic in it's early stage and then they rage quitted over 2 months ago. Makes sense i guess^^

cya in poe 2

My most memorable momemt was uninstalling the game after gambling a house of mirror card, four times nothing happened, fifth time it poofed.

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absurdistan88 wrote:

My most memorable momemt was uninstalling the game after gambling a house of mirror card, four times nothing happened, fifth time it poofed.

Don't gamble something you don't want to lose, a rule as old as day

You necro'd your own thread after a month went by and not one exile gave a shit.

Now a few posted....still loved exile?

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ArtCrusade wrote:

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absurdistan88 wrote:

My most memorable momemt was uninstalling the game after gambling a house of mirror card, four times nothing happened, fifth time it poofed.

Don't gamble something you don't want to lose, a rule as old as day

So true, hence I didn't want to gamble my sanity away, and thus I uninstalled:)

tldr

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Airbourne13 wrote:

tldr

"notice me forum for I have quit"

"notice me forum for I have returned"

you are welcome