my world is a wasteland , please dont let me go...go...go...

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Why was it me that of all people you choose me...

His world was a wasteland...
The song was playing on the loop for so many times i cant count...
He liked it a lot. The depression must have been crushing...
He still smiled , laughed , programmed to react...
You could see in his eyes how troubled he was...

But he kept moving...
The games kept him going forward and in the final moments was this game...
Why was it me that of all people you choose me...

Life took the light out of him years ago, when he lost house , wife , daughter...
He came back to the family house...
He was broken...inside...
I remember how emberased he was , when his wife told him how stupid is to play games...
To play a pretend like you were 4...
So he stopped...
Nothing to be afraid of now...
He started playing games after so many years, when he finnaly had all the time in the world...
The dungeon building one kept him going for years...
I wish i was listening back then...
I wish i was listening last few days of how passionate you were about all this new world you have found...

My older brother died hours ago of heartattack...
He wasnt scared, he was smiling , torment finally ended...
The boredome of life in darkness...
Ambulance did not made it in time...
In his final moments...I have to enjoy his game, see the end...
What kind of a wish is that...
Why was it me that of all people you choose me...

I have no idea what i should do...
I have played sims tops, not this...
There was nothing to do till the morning...
Not that I could sleep or anything...

I ve started his computer, looked for game, logged in, and was like...what should i do ?...
Why were you playing as a female ?
Can I break something irreversible ?
What are all those tiny things in the chest ?
Why is there so many of them ? So many tabs of them ?
Why there are others ?
Should I continue ?
Should I even touch your stuff ?
I had no idea that your world is this chaotic...

I ve googled some videos. They did not really answered my questions. Brought more...
So I guess I should recover my old steam account and start this journey from the beginning...

If anyone is out there, willing to help, I ll take all the help you can offer... ingame.
No need for money , he was broken, but not broke...
Just an advice for what i would not call a beginner I would call myself an infant...

I dont need anyone reminding me of this with condolences...etc... I am quite aware of the situation...I just want to see the end of this... and I dont know...

edit - 1:
I am good now, not deleting this rant. Manage to schedule a friend to help me explain things. We would be having some history lessons etc.

I ve bought the Path of exile 2 on steam the same version as my brother had. Found out the hardway that it is not supported on mac. Oh well... I ve notified my friend he said that he will look into it either how to make it work or simply we ll be buying a new notebook.