After playing POE2 for some time i just feel like i hate the new atlas

there are 2 me's.

one that optimizes.
oh this area has 2-3 watch towers. if i path to them like this i can block some maps which have nothing much in them to juice them up. then when get all the watch towers, i can slap in bonuses to juice the maps up WOOT!

another that doesnt want to.
i just want to explore the map as much as possible and keep going further. lets look for interesting things!

they are at opposing sides of each other. if i optimize i cant explore. if i explore then my maps arent worth it.

t15 waypoints are valuable and dying is penalized so ideally i want to be able to sustain as much as possible which makes optimizing a more ideal way to play.

this also goes into another issue. tablet management. i enjoyed legacy league back in the day. but one day i realized. i HATED micromanaging 1001 different tablets. similarly i hated sextants. i had a huge amount in my stash which i saved up to run once i juice things up. choosing which tablets also becomes a chore.

i just want to "alc and go" but no. thats not juicy enough. i need to use my brain to proper utilize the atlas.

i hate seeing "uncleared" areas. i tend to complete them even if its at the expense of my time and effort. i have a mild OCD that i feel VERY annoyed not seeing everything green.

It's infinite by nature. sometimes the map can have so many things you lose track of where you are. on one hand i do appreciate it. but on another i now prefer Last epoch's monolith of fate where their infinite maps can be collapsed/reset and not get too big. when i open the atlas and see so many nodes. i just cant help feel overwhelmed. as mentioned i have minor OCD too which doesnt help. by nature how does one "complete" something thats infinite?

also with it being infinite sometimes i "forget" what i was aiming for. sometimes i look around the atlas and find a juicy spot which i had prepared a few days earlier and totally forgot.